Sometimes I think I must be crazy.
How am I going to take nine units, continue to home school my daughter, maintain relationships with Duane, my kids, and friends.
How am I going to exercise and clean and cook?
How am I going to pursue writing and getting published when my time is spent studying?
How am I going to make time to spend with God?
I can't do everything!
I start thinking about all of this and I start to panic--and I haven't even started yet.
It is important for me to remember why I want to go to school and so I am going to write down the reasons:
- I don't want to be a church secretary for the rest of my life.
- I love working for the church. I do.
- I have some administrative gifts, but this does not define me.
- On days when my job is primarily administrative, I am completely drained.
- I want to prepare myself to step into another role as God provides opportunities.
- I see myself as a writer and a teacher. Everything I do comes from this perspective.
- I ask myself how can we communicate this topic better?
- My desire is to mentor, to teach, to change thought patterns.
- I love teaching.
- I love creating materials for others to use to teach.
- I love writing down ideas that influence and teach.
- Writing, developing curriculum, and teaching and encouraging others energizes me and makes me feel alive.
- I want to meet new people--people with diverse ideas and philosophies.
When life gets hard this fall, when I want to quit, when I want to stay where I am because it really isn't that bad...
I need to remember why I am doing what I am doing.
I want to be who I was made to be.
I want to walk into the future God planned for me.
I want to continually redefine myself so that God use me to do things that are bigger than me.
Don't forget, Erin. Don't forget.