Saturday, August 9, 2008

Remembering Why

I start school on September 2.

Nine units.
Sometimes I think I must be crazy.

How am I going to take nine units, continue to home school my daughter, maintain relationships with Duane, my kids, and friends.

How am I going to exercise and clean and cook?
How am I going to pursue writing and getting published when my time is spent studying?
How am I going to make time to spend with God?

I can't do everything!

I start thinking about all of this and I start to panic--and I haven't even started yet.

It is important for me to remember why I want to go to school and so I am going to write down the reasons:
  • I don't want to be a church secretary for the rest of my life.
    • I love working for the church. I do.
    • I have some administrative gifts, but this does not define me.
    • On days when my job is primarily administrative, I am completely drained.
    • I want to prepare myself to step into another role as God provides opportunities.
  • I see myself as a writer and a teacher. Everything I do comes from this perspective.
    • I ask myself how can we communicate this topic better?
    • My desire is to mentor, to teach, to change thought patterns.
    • I love teaching.
    • I love creating materials for others to use to teach.
    • I love writing down ideas that influence and teach.
    • Writing, developing curriculum, and teaching and encouraging others energizes me and makes me feel alive.
  • I want to meet new people--people with diverse ideas and philosophies.
When life gets hard this fall, when I want to quit, when I want to stay where I am because it really isn't that bad...

I need to remember why I am doing what I am doing.

I want to be who I was made to be.
I want to walk into the future God planned for me.
I want to continually redefine myself so that God use me to do things that are bigger than me.

Don't forget, Erin. Don't forget.


Joy said...

"My desire is to mentor, to teach, to change thought patterns."

you do this for me.

Erin Flew said...

Thanks, Joy.