I am sitting at my computer, trying to come up with a cohesive outline for the paper I am writing for the conference at Columbia, and I literally have nothing to say.
I've bought a ticket. I've spent money. I've told everyone I know that I'm going.
But I just want to quit.
I don't care if I lose all that money.
I don't care if people think I failed.
What's that about?
Why does this always happen to me?
Why do I step out, attempt to move forward, and then get stuck?
I won't quit, but I want to.
I'm tired of being stuck.
I'm tired of being limited by my fears. Even the fears I can't define.
I just really need something to say.