Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Stuck and Tempted to Quit

I am sitting at my computer, trying to come up with a cohesive outline for the paper I am writing for the conference at Columbia, and I literally have nothing to say.

I've bought a ticket. I've spent money. I've told everyone I know that I'm going.
But I just want to quit.

I don't care if I lose all that money.
I don't care if people think I failed.

What's that about?
Why does this always happen to me?

Why do I step out, attempt to move forward, and then get stuck?

I won't quit, but I want to.
I'm tired of being stuck.
I'm tired of being limited by my fears. Even the fears I can't define.

I just really need something to say.


Anonymous said...

"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, nor will the flame burn you. For I am the Lord your God, The Honly One of Isreal, your are precious in my sight." Isaiah 43

Sorry you are having such a difficult time with your paper. I am going to set my alarm and say a quick prayer for you every hour for the rest of the day. God bless. Know you are loved.

Erin Flew said...

Thank you for your prayers. I at least have an introduction now.